Diary Thread

Late night 7/18/2017

I'm going to start putting these in here just in case some people don't want to read it. It's alright if you don't, imo.

Dear Diary,

I'm feeling a little down while writing this, but that's fine. It doesn't really change anything in my post.

I spent the day like any of my other summer days, just lying around, sleeping, watching videos and playing games... also doing small chores, of course. I never get to do this during the school year, so I cherish every moment of summer doing lazy things like I always do... I mean, it's boring sometimes, but maybe a good kind..?

In yet another paragraph of video game related things, I was planning a certain "speedrun" (not really a serious one though, I do "these" for fun) a while ago for a certain series that is reaching their 30th anniversary very soon. By soon.... I mean 3 days... well, approx. I'm so worried that I'm going to mess up pretty hard in it, but that's probably just anxiety building up. I'm super worried about one level, because instead of being able to run around the level as you like, you're forced to stay on this one medium sized platform, which is small compared to the length of other levels, and if you don't clear certain enemy squads fast enough, you get a game over. It doesn't really help that I'm already bad at fighting said enemies and it's somewhat easy to fail that level. I hope that with some training, I can beat it on the difficulty I'm planning to beat it on.
(What is this said game? Well, let's just say it's the one my pfp comes from... I won't really say it here because I have SUPER BAD WORSE THAN WORSE anxiety when it even comes to mentioning the game and/or its characters. Yeah, it's that bad. You could also read it because it's in my profile, on the third tab. Oh well.

I kind of find writing this kind of therapeutic on this forum, I really don't liking writing physical diaries and nobody will ever read them in the end (yay for my stupid phobia -.-"). Reading the other entries kind of get me motivated to write my own, and maybe, just maybe, someone will actually read mine and be like "Oh, that's pretty cool." (two points for the squares because of stupid phobia yet again)
Yet again, I should get on TFM and probably seek out someone to talk to, or see if my friend (well, I call them that. Not sure if they call me one, though.) will whisper me again and we can strike a conversation again. I suck at starting conversations because I'm super antisocial and awkward, so yeah.

mini-warning? Just me being super emotional and stuff, some people might want to read it so...

I'm kind of tired, but I'm going to practice that said level and play some other ones before going to bed.

- In a slightly scrambled mess, Ayu

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#42

Dear diary,

This is actually a journal.
Not a diary

#43

7/18/17
Lol, man, shit, diary.
My stomach hurts from too much candy-
This is was I was afraid of when I purchased Dots, Swedish fish, Kit Kats minis and 2 Icees from the dollar store.
Now I gotta go buy more tomorrow so I can bring some to Ash's house Thursday. And I can't eat them right away :x
Well at least that's not all I ate today, I had (I think) 8-12 slices of cheese quesadillas Mom made.
I need to get a better eating habit though but junk food is so good <3_<3
I'm surprised my sister calls me skinny lol
Should better get some rest though...

~Iwill/Cia

I feel like throwing up now and it's 3 am

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#44

HENLO STINKY DAIRY

i found fermented milk on my desk

#45

7/19

Dear diary,

Writing here is getting stressful. This is my last entry.
-
So lately I haven't done anything except sit around. Also, I think I'm finally seeing effects of the testosterone I've been on. Nothing visual, but I feel very different. It's hard to explain.
Anywho, I dislike writing here, so I may take a break for a period of time. Forgive my poor efforts, but I'm not motivated to do anything; especially write about my day often. Sure, it's relaxing at times, I suppose, but I'm just not liking it.
-
p.s.
I'm sleepy.

#46

7/19

Dear diary

I didn't sleep well, I was mocking with my brother and nothing else interesting.

#47

7/19/2017
Dear Diary,

I'm so unmotivated, I can't even motivate myself to sleep.

- I can't even think of an outro

#48

Dear diary
My friend finished making another aph mochi for me. It looks adorable.
Also, one of my other friends left his puffin at my home for the day. It keeps staring at me. Send help.
Or a muffin. Preferably blueberry.

#49

7/19/17

Dear diary,

Just a quick question, fam.
Why is it so satisfying when I send memes to my crush and they send back? It's almost like we're actually having a bond together...
Memes are life.

~Cia

#50

7/20/17 2:43 am
dear diary,
wOOOOOO MY FIRST ENTRY
and because it's only 2 am im gonna talk about yesterday
nothing really happened. i woke up at 12 pm because i stayed up until 2:50-ish and everytime i do that i die a little on the inside.
my brother let my cat jiji in so soon after i hear jiji barging into the room and meowing for food.
because im lazy and still sleepy i gave him milk but then later gave him actual cat food because he wouldn't drink the milk.
the rest of the day is spent on youtube and slowly starting to stop playing transformice.
feeling bored i decided to watch some magic kaito 1412 (and the opening and ending changed and i don't like that because i don't like the new ones and i prefer the old ones, especially the opening)
i also watched some tomodachi life streams by vinesauce and i came across the part of the possessed skeleton toy which made me laugh so much i decided to look up the video itself and find it (i also watched some random game grumps things but that doesnt matter)
aaaaaaand now im starting to watch more magic kaito and im gonna watch episode 17 later.

-fin, staris
p.s. because i hate getting up late im deciding to stay up all night woOOooOOoo haha i need a life

#51

All right..

7/20/17
It's my 13th birthday and just jeez.. it's already turning out better than I expected in a weird way..
Colin made me make a Facebook account. (My Yandere stalking already made one-) But I made a new account.
He got on my ass for having my name as the nickname everyone calls me at school. I don't get why he doesn't call me by my nickname.. :( everyone calls me it..
After getting off Facebook for a bit, I went back on and saw a friend request, which I knew which would be him.
I accepted his request and immediately went to his page. I'm in mad love with his profile picture...
When it's later I should call Devin and see if he's gonna tell me happy bday from subtle hints...

Ahh, hoping for more happy moments..
~Cia

#52

Wednesday 19th of July

Dear Diary,

This is my third day at my camp in Ashford.
No sport today, I am blessed.
This morning, we headed to Dover, a town near the sea in the East of Ashford to visit Dover's Castle.
We climbed up to the roof and visited every room on the way. They were filled with reconstitutions of various items from the time so it was really interesting to learn more about them.
I slept in the bus on the way back listening to music.
I studied formal English in the afternoon and I asked for more to practise on and the teacher should be giving me more work to do tomorrow. I ended up continuing reading Agatha Christie in class since I was done early with my work and didn't have any room left on my sheet to draw.
We skipped this evening's activity (movie night) to go to the nearest supermarket: Sunsbury.
The children were craving sweets, the teenagers snacks. I bought £3 worth of food for our excursions to London and Cambridge later on my journey here and a book that was half priced, in fact, every book were half priced on the section I was in and I wonder if I should've bought more. For £3.99 it's fair, right?
Earlier in the classroom, a French girl told me she also had random bruises and pain on her back and she thinks it is because of the bed's springs. She must be right, I can feel it with my hand but I never noticed it when lying down. Tonight, I'm sleeping with my cushion on my back and I'll see if it hurts tomorrow.

PS: Too tired to post it tonight, I'll do tomorrow. I'm sleeping early.

Lub

#53

Dear Diary

I can't find the lamb sauce
Where is the lamb sauce??

#54

Thursday 20th of July

Dear Diary,

Today is my fourth day at my camp in Ashford.
Yes, it's definitely the springs that hurt my back, I've tried sleeping with my cushion on my back - and ended up sleeping on my stomach - and woke up with no pain at all!
Darn old beds and used springs!
It was raining a bit in the morning, enough to turn most of the playground into mud. After my activities (foot games, problem solving and team challenges) my clothes were really dirty. I low-key had a kind of crush on one of the coach called Finn. He has really pretty blue eyes and blonde hair cut into a fringe and nice curls at the back. I heard we're going to do team challenges again once more tomorrow so maybe I'll see him again!
I'm sure my body is going to be even more sore from the sport though... because all I did was run, lift tyres around and realise my arms were too weak to lift me over obstacles or plank under ropes. We had fun doing races or competing against each other in general.
We had some time in our room since it was raining and I tried to clean off the mud but the toilet paper is really not enough and it rips too easily while wiping so I left my pants half cleaned and changed into the jeans I already dirtied during the mini Olympics on Monday. I'll handwash my clothes on Saturday, since it might be our only day off.
My teacher was sick today so I learned about jobs and job interviews with two other people, one is called James and is from Scotland. He was an ingenieer and recently applied for a job in a prison in which he took part in the design and constructiom. I thought it was so cool that he did that but still came this far to Ashford to teach foreign teenagers about job interviews' do's and don't's.
This evening's activity was the one I anticipated the most: campfire. But we ended up doing a talent show, mumbling Twinkle Twinkle as our coach Lewis didn't let us sing our respective national hymn. I was hoping we could burn some marshmallow using dirty sticks over the fire but I guess not then... It was still fun watching the coaches trying to make a pyramid, by that I mean watching Lewis as he's probably having a hard time acting cool while having people on him.
The children and teenagers usually look depressed or tired, I pity the coaches who have to try and make us smile... I found it really funny how everyone still reacted to one of them screaming "the floor is lava" but no one did but me for "Andy's coming!" I guess I was the only one to know about this one!

Lub

#55

July 20, 2017

I want to quit using the forums since I don't have many friends on here and it's getting cringy as fuck to visit.

PS. I dont get why people are so upset Chester killed himself.

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#56

Removed.

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#57

7/20/2017, 11:34 P.M. (23:34 Eastern Time Zone)

zzz

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#58

hello diary

today im quitting tfm for abt 2 weeks

#59

Iwillforget a dit :
All right..

7/20/17
It's my 13th birthday and just jeez.. it's already turning out better than I expected in a weird way..
Colin made me make a Facebook account. (My Yandere stalking already made one-) But I made a new account.
He got on my ass for having my name as the nickname everyone calls me at school. I don't get why he doesn't call me by my nickname.. :( everyone calls me it..
After getting off Facebook for a bit, I went back on and saw a friend request, which I knew which would be him.
I accepted his request and immediately went to his page. I'm in mad love with his profile picture...
When it's later I should call Devin and see if he's gonna tell me happy bday from subtle hints...

Ahh, hoping for more happy moments..
~Cia

Continued~

I went to Winco first (Winco, more like.. loseco) and my mom got pizza and cake and I got peach rings, chocolate milk, and chocolate pies *-*
Echo came over when I got back! She's in the pool currently. I got out because my ears started to hurt ;^;
We went out. We first went to Costco. I only got jelly beans and a book (Summer reading)
Then we went to Target so I can spend my 25*$ gift card Echo's mom gave me,
I spent it on a Steam Card, 3 icees, and a thing of icebreaker gum..
Then me and Echo spent 27$ at Dollar Tree.
Then we went to mcdonalds for my chicken nuggets.
I would be at my friend's house right now but there was a shooting going on that is on the way of my house to hers :(
And then I got Echo to spend the night! :o
~Cia

Also i saw a guy I don't like at Costco

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#60

Dear diary
I still can't find the lamb sauce

On a serious note, my friend tried to cook Mr noodles which is cool and all..
But he used ginger ale instead of water
One of these days he will burn the house down

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