Not everything you see is real
Not everything you hear is true

Investigate before you judge

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I sense it again in her eighteenth birthday, when i held her hand and her. I never knew it till that night that i really in love with her. I can't deny what i felt for her but in the real world, i have to . She already have a guy who is also a christian. And i should let her go now. I will leave the memory we had in the place we've been together

it was my final moment with her that day. I wish i could have make it longer and better, but i believe i give my best dance. and i like it even more if the music was "Thinking out loud" while we're dancing. And i will be fine.


[Entry March 29 2020]

Im back! The stuff above this entry are from my previous self who are still wandering his life. well that guy was me but this guy is far more different from the previous one, obviously....but speaking of the present day. i have made a lot of changes to myself. Just as usual human being we're going through hard times, committing mistakes, regret, and also shaming your own self(i can't find perfect phrase to describe it}. but i hope none of you would make fun of what i said here. if there's anything wrong with what im typing here write now, please do tell me through inbox, i would love to have a convo.

[Entry December 13 2022]

Lets create another one since nobody would read it anyway, other than you Cris. if one day you decide to open this account again and read this. Whatever circumstances you may have, i wish you understand what our former self's been doing and you don't have to look back and blame it again. I'm definitely not sure how our future looks like, or if you'll ever read this.

I hope you learned the lesson im supposed to learn now. I hope our future will be great! it doesn't have to be glorious, stylish or fancy. Whatever your limits could attain is enough. Also i hope you never forget our dreams.

And also, i hope you move on. records of the past won't be kept forever anyway. :)

[Entry June 22 2023]

The text above is because someone keeps on drinking milk.

Since i can't recover this account with my old email. i guess this will be a goodbye for me. Unless I found a way to hack my old email. geez, I can't remember the passwords I use.

[Entry November 21, 2023]

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