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dear nonexistent diary that isn't really a diary because everyone can read it for themselves but still- hi!! i've made a friend and she's really nice and she keeps calling me cute which i never know how to reply to but she's a Good(tm). she's v nice and kind and considerate and she seems to want to be friends so that's!!! nice!! so i'm p happy about that, but i was up rly late on discord (teetering on the edge of midnight) and i couldn't get to sleep because i had taken a nap earlier so i was panicking that i wouldn't be rested enough to survive in school but i'm here and somehow alive so?? i guess that's good!! she already messaged me a response to my good morning so hopefully she has a good day :^) also i just got my test back and i had a 100 on it but i was worried i only had like an 80 im shouting im happy anyway i have to go to class so adios! e: new page im shouting Dernière modification le 1508766900000 |
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Dear Diary : Me and my friend thought we slept on a blanket that my grandmother had died on. Fin. |
Ayumiouo « Consul » 1508813100000
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10/23/2017 Dear Diary, can I (sorta) rant here for a sec thanks ok so how do I put this something has been bothering me a lot recently mainly just... myself. ugh I'm just so stupid why am I trying to disappear when I know I can't commit to that for a day or two and after a month, my friend will be very scared and worried about me (?) just why even bother my mood in general is stuck in a washing machine; it just keeps rising and falling all the time especially on the falling part my whole month of October started out decent but then come a few days after that, "hello darkness, my old friend." these past two weeks have been a living mental hell for me my grades have reduced to dust and I still can't get myself together even though it's been three months since that one terrible time, it feels like I keep repeating it, over and over, never being able to escape ugh this just hurts my head that and I keep worrying about my friend, maybe she is secretly toying with me or I'm just useless to her now, but that's stupid... right? just jfc ayu JUST DON'T STOP BELIEVING-- don't give up just yet just see what your favorite vg character and crush did when everyone was against his goddess and he was the only one (or one of the few) that still believed in her, that she was being manipulated screams I swear just shut up me and don't give up just yet please in other news I'm switching to a homeschool system compared to the regular online school system which means goodbye boring extra classes that add unnecessary stress onto me! also hot cocoa + the sound of rain + darkness with one little light = yess - I'M STILLLLLLLL IN A DREAAAMMM, SNAKE EATERRRRR Dernière modification le 1508813460000 |
Bastlase « Sénateur » 1508814120000
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Date: 10/23/17 11:01PM Dear diary, Thanks to all the awesome people on atelier801, I am now at level 2! -fin |
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dear diary (that, again, isn't really a diary because they're supposed to be private but whatever), i've been in school for, like, 2 months and a half now, and i have a 95 in this class but i'm apparently too young to be in it so now they want to switch me back into the proper classes despite my success in this class mind you, it's a relatively difficult class, but it's meant for people older than me so i can't be in it they don't even have enough people in the class so i'm. they better not move me because it might screw up more than just that one class for me w/e though, ig adios |
Ayumiouo « Consul » 1509418440000
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here we go again 10/30/2017 Dear Diary, So far, this week has been kinda boring for me. I did get a lot of stuff done in Cyberdimension Neptunia: 4 Goddesses Online (a ps4 game) yesterday, but that so far has been the only thing this week that has really cheered me up in some way. oh school why must you be so tedious speaking of school Thanks to some paperwork my parents signed, I'll be able to get "home-schooled" (not really) and that means that I don't need to take any more unnecessary classes anymore! Goodbye, Leadership and Digital Tech, won't miss you when I'm gone! Also on the 7th of November, I finally get to go to my first therapy session haha I'm both excited but scared at the same time let's hope it ends up going well meanwhile I'm still waiting for a message from my friend I'm still pretty worried about her, but if I don't get anything by the end of this week, I'll let her know about my worry... but at the same time I don't want to appear more clingy and dependent than I already am, so... who knows, I guess. I can't give up any hope at all. I would be a complete failure of a person if I did. well let's hope this week goes by smoothly -From yearning me to blooming you, Ayumi 11/1/2017 Dear Diary, what should I do I can't stop crying on the inside and some of the tears have escaped out of my eyes I want to shrink but I can't that sucks with all these depressive episodes as of late, I wouldn't be surprised if I had actual depression... though seeing as I don't do things regular depressed people would do, I probably wouldn't be counted as one even though I feel like one just 3 days 3 days and maybe we'll see... ...more like 2 more weeks, or longer than that..... oh geez please don't let it be like that I can barely even survive 2 weeks without them ffreak I'm a terrible human being - fml Dernière modification le 1509587580000 |
Sincerelymaple « Censeur » 1509676500000
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Dear diary Someone sent me a small box of candies. I don't know who it was but it really brightened my day. There was a real bad storm last night and it kind of scared me. The wind was howling like a pack of wolves and the rain poured so hard I thought my windows would break. It's supposed to snow tomorrow and I'm so excited. Canadian winters are the best! Also, I find it sad how the stores have Christmas stuff already. Can they wait until after November 11 (remembrance day)? I mean, it's just disrespectful to our soldiers who fought and died. Go ahead, bash me for this opinion. But unlike some people, I have respect for troops. If you can't stand behind them and support them, feel free to stand in front of them! See you soon diary! |
Kingphillip « Consul » 1509678240000
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Dear diary It's been pretty even week It's had its ups and downs Like, I went trick or treating with Colin and Matthew (up) But I did get my butt wet on a slide lol (down) And how me and Colin kept staring at each other in science (up) But he got sent in the hall for "distracting me" (down) (no its the other way around and I still feel sooo bad) I've been pretty pissed for two days now Not sure why People just annoy the hell out of me And it's weird cuz it's Colin and Echo annoying me ;-; And it's not even on purpose Ugh I honestly just want to stay home tomorrow just so I don't have to deal with people BUTTT I'm trying my best to have perfect attendance this year ~Air conditioner |
Mayaincir « Censeur » 1509821220000
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Date: 4/11/2017 Dear diary, I went to the courses in my school as I go every weekend. When I came home, I got ready for going to eye doctor. Then we arrived there. When I was with glaucoma meter, I flinched 2 times >.< They also dripped collyrium to make my pupil bigger. I couldn't see close objects clearly for hours.. By the way, there is no difference about my eyes. I went to mall. There was a bookstore there. I had trouble with reading some. Anyway, I bought a book. We came home in evening. -- I still couldn't start my guitar course. |
Ayumiouo « Consul » 1509852960000
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11/4/2017 Dear Diary, yay for another chill day (it's better than school) I basically did nothing today for the most part well, I got a new pfp that's cute (ty iwill), changed my laptop wallpaper, and changed my profile a little bit (I'm working on it) my sadness from last post has disappeared for today, but I'm sure it will return on Monday (or Sunday, it depends) also I'm finally going to my first therapy session in 3 days agh I'm both excited and scared at the same time, especially since it's drawing nearer and nearer every day I wonder where we're even going in the first place hmm it was fun being happy while it lasted so many things are still going through my head and for one certain thing, I dread what my therapist might say about it see you next week - See you never, Ayu 11/16/2017 Dear Diary, does anyone ever post here anymore oY in other news a spider attacked me while I was taking a shower I tried to counter it with water but then it looked like it jumped near me and I screamed thank goodness my dad used to work for pest control and he killed it for me the spider was somewhat small and it was red I hope it wasn't a dangerous spider or something It probably wasn't - 2spooky4me, Ayu e: I looked around and someone put me in their profile as a friend and/or good person I was happy for a moment but then my brain told me that that was selfish and stupid of me ... "excuse me 3spooky5me" 12/25/2017 My right jaw hurts from biting down so hard on my candy cane. I don't know if anyone else still reads this thread anymore. They probably don't. It's just me, myself, and I. ...Like it has always been. Dernière modification le 1514184480000 |
Ewiforlife « Citoyen » 1515126060000
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lmao idek anymore |
Gadgetrocks « Censeur » 1515127260000
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Griffincraft a dit : Me too XD |
Hysteria « Consul » 1515179100000
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1/5/18 dear dairy, fuck diary, i just ate some chocolate covered cherries but i want to fucking die |
Kallen « Consul » 1515183840000
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Lovebooth « Citoyen » 1515193680000
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january 5th, 2018 dear whatever this is, today i fucking lit my hand on fire during science class for like .2 seconds because im dumb (im fine though lmao) |
Gadgetrocks « Censeur » 1515196440000
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January 5 2018 Dear Diary, yesterday I went to the eye doctor, apprenly the right eye is basicly doing all the seeing for me. My left eye (with glasses on) is blurry and I have slight couple vision. This is random,but I am getting new glasses (red!) Bye! |
Ayumiouo « Consul » 1515306300000
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1/7/2018 Dear pesky plumbers: holy macaroni, this thread got revived?! thank In other news, I've spent the last week seeing my grandfather die and go to his funeral... yeah... and go through two 22-hour long car rides. Nothing else has really happened so I have nothing else to say there. Though I have been listening to one song a lot and now I'm reminded that I never told my best friend about, well, let's say it's confidential for now (only one other person or two and me know about it.) Pepperoni Pizza-icus, Ayumi |
Mishi1 « Citoyen » 1515311880000
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7/1/18 Dear diary, I'm so alone it feels like the whole world is against me :( Lonely. Dernière modification le 1515312000000 |
Sincerelymaple « Censeur » 1515398220000
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Dear diary I'm scared My best friend and I have been having trouble having a lively conversation. I don't want to lose her,she's so precious. Ve I'm afraid that when we leave for a break, she will stop caring. But that won't happen eh? Also,my crushes birthday is coming up soon. I can't wait together her the gift. I'm sure she will like it. |
Ayumiouo « Consul » 1515978420000
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1/14/2018 Dear pesky plumbers: I've been doing nothing but watching Smash 4 PAX arena, and yeah it was quite something poor Cosmos didn't win but ho goodness he is getting super strong hoping this will be a good year for him... ...and Earth because 2017 was a pretty bad year for him imo, even though he got far in Umebara 30 (I think?) and that one FE bracket at FE saga, he still kinda sucked ah well, we'll see how this year plays out for him in other news: - FINALLY beat Neplunker Zero in Megadimension Neptunia VII - Finished Classic Mode with everyone in Smash Melee (yay no more Master Hand... for now!) - I'm almost done watching all of Kill la Kill, only 4 episodes which I hope I can binge tonight. smell ya later - You already know who I am 2/7/2018 (wow it's been ages since I did anything here) Dear humon reading this: every day I watch Beyblade: Metal Fusion with the person I live with, the more and more worried I get that they probably still think I have a crush on a certain green dude who happens to be the main character's rival... yeah it's weird I mean I did have a crush on him when I was a little kid (and that's when he was a freaking maniac, not the cool and admittedly badass person he is in later episodes) but I've moved on since then it bothers me but doesn't at the same time weird in other news: - I still suck at school - I'm better at SkullGirls - I'm back to being a stupid lonely loner again - my perfectionist issues are really hurting my grades in school but I can't help it - I want to start doing YTPs soon... well, wish because my laptop is laggy and kinda old - I got fraises again - I'm really certain I have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) when I really, really think about it - netflix is cool - and as you all know if you follow my LL thread, Beyblade has swallowed up my life and I can't stop thinking about it... somewhat it's my guilty pleasure okay and a childhood show I have fond memories of darn I'm boring and my life is boring so I'm going to end this off here you primates until I get a word from my ally who's floating in space somewhere let's meet back tomorrow... or the day after tomorrow.. or idk some day in the future, shall we? - All I needed were the things I liked but reality said no Dernière modification le 1518062880000 |