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i feel like i lost another friend because i was being too clingy and they say i give them no freedom but they're so close that if i dont hear within a day-two days i get concerned
i guess they didn't like that

its okay though
ill be okay
i'll sleep the emotion off like i do and wake up fine

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Daapplehead a dit :VoirMasquer

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i feel like i lost another friend because i was being too clingy and they say i give them no freedom but they're so close that if i dont hear within a day-two days i get concerned
i guess they didn't like that

its okay though
ill be okay
i'll sleep the emotion off like i do and wake up fine

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I know the feeling of clinginess all too well. Although for me, it was with crushes, not friends. Simply put, you just need to give them space, even if you want to talk to them all the time. Say you're talking to them every day on average, and that's too much for them, just cut back and talk every other day. Because if you're not careful, they may get angry at you and it'll feel terrible. And friendships should be even and mutual.
If it's to the extent that you actually get upset when they're not on, that's a bad situation. The nuclear option is to cut off from them for a while (like maybe a week, a month etc); you'll get over your dependency and they'll be happier to see you. At first dependency means being really happy around someone, but when it becomes feeling sad when you're not talking to them, avoid that situation like the plague.

cheesezwheel a dit :

I thought this was a comfort thread not ignore thread. Now I feel more alone then ever. Time to cut.

Kthxbai

Bogkitty a dit :

No matter what happened, what you did or what someone else did, you should know you're all wonderful and you should feel great about it, so don't be sad, everything is going to be okay, and it's hug time. *hugs*

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I thought this was a comfort thread not ignore thread. Now I feel more alone then ever. Time to cut.

Kthxbai

Bogkitty a dit :VoirMasquer

No matter what happened, what you did or what someone else did, you should know you're all wonderful and you should feel great about it, so don't be sad, everything is going to be okay, and it's hug time. *hugs*

Haruhitastic a dit :

If you're actually at the point of self harming, seek help irl.

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Haruhitastic a dit :VoirMasquer

If you're actually at the point of self harming, seek help irl.

Already in foster care

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If you're actually at the point of self harming, seek help irl.

Already in foster care

I...
Foster care =/= psychological assistance.

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Okay, so I've actually been really depressed for a while. I don't know if it's clinical or not, but I'm starting to think I need to go to a doctor. I just can't find the energy to give a damn?? About anything?? The only thing I can really do anymore is draw, and even then I'm so terribly art blocked and nothing is good enough. My motivation is out the window. I feel happy sometimes, but it's fleeting and it goes away as fast as it comes. Yesterday I saw my friend out in public, I hadn't seen her in a long time. She was genuinely concerned about me and asked me if I was okay... We talked, but seeing her put me in shock afterwards. She looked so together. It was like seeing a reflection of who I used to be. For the first time in a while, I was genuinely feeling strong emotion. I cried myself exhausted when I got home thinking about how much I want to be okay again. I guess the fact that I'm showing some emotions at least, is good? I don't know. It's really hard to get out of bed because I'm just so tired. I need to sleep, but I've also had mild insomnia along with the emotional numbness. I'm tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of not being able to care. I'm also scared to death of just being prescribed a "happy-pill". I don't want that, and I don't know what to do anymore. It's also frustrating not being able to sleep. This isn't who I am. I'm usually so happy and bubbly naturally, so feeling numb and lethargic is tearing me apart.

bottom line: I'm depressed and I'm terrified of going to a doctor

i may not need actual advice, i just needed to share bc keeping these feelings (or lack of) inside me is hell

bagelbit a dit :

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Okay, so I've actually been really depressed for a while. I don't know if it's clinical or not, but I'm starting to think I need to go to a doctor. I just can't find the energy to give a damn?? About anything?? The only thing I can really do anymore is draw, and even then I'm so terribly art blocked and nothing is good enough. My motivation is out the window. I feel happy sometimes, but it's fleeting and it goes away as fast as it comes. Yesterday I saw my friend out in public, I hadn't seen her in a long time. She was genuinely concerned about me and asked me if I was okay... We talked, but seeing her put me in shock afterwards. She looked so together. It was like seeing a reflection of who I used to be. For the first time in a while, I was genuinely feeling strong emotion. I cried myself exhausted when I got home thinking about how much I want to be okay again. I guess the fact that I'm showing some emotions at least, is good? I don't know. It's really hard to get out of bed because I'm just so tired. I need to sleep, but I've also had mild insomnia along with the emotional numbness. I'm tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of not being able to care. I'm also scared to death of just being prescribed a "happy-pill". I don't want that, and I don't know what to do anymore. It's also frustrating not being able to sleep. This isn't who I am. I'm usually so happy and bubbly naturally, so feeling numb and lethargic is tearing me apart.

bottom line: I'm depressed and I'm terrified of going to a doctor

i may not need actual advice, i just needed to share bc keeping these feelings (or lack of) inside me is hell

pikuh a dit :

im getting no response.

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im getting no response.

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Okay, so I've actually been really depressed for a while. I don't know if it's clinical or not, but I'm starting to think I need to go to a doctor. I just can't find the energy to give a damn?? About anything?? The only thing I can really do anymore is draw, and even then I'm so terribly art blocked and nothing is good enough. My motivation is out the window. I feel happy sometimes, but it's fleeting and it goes away as fast as it comes. Yesterday I saw my friend out in public, I hadn't seen her in a long time. She was genuinely concerned about me and asked me if I was okay... We talked, but seeing her put me in shock afterwards. She looked so together. It was like seeing a reflection of who I used to be. For the first time in a while, I was genuinely feeling strong emotion. I cried myself exhausted when I got home thinking about how much I want to be okay again. I guess the fact that I'm showing some emotions at least, is good? I don't know. It's really hard to get out of bed because I'm just so tired. I need to sleep, but I've also had mild insomnia along with the emotional numbness. I'm tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of not being able to care. I'm also scared to death of just being prescribed a "happy-pill". I don't want that, and I don't know what to do anymore. It's also frustrating not being able to sleep. This isn't who I am. I'm usually so happy and bubbly naturally, so feeling numb and lethargic is tearing me apart.

bottom line: I'm depressed and I'm terrified of going to a doctor

i may not need actual advice, i just needed to share bc keeping these feelings (or lack of) inside me is hell

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huggykitty a dit :VoirMasquer

^I suspect you've tried this but what about trying something new? Getting into a movie series, anime, TV show, book, video game series, anything. Also, maybe try going outside for running? It'll make you feel fresh.

Also, if your parents would be ok with it, try asking them about a holiday (vacation) somewhere. I think that also helps, although it depends entirely on your parents. As for seeing a doctor, I'm pretty sure you won't be forced to be put on medications (hope I'm not wrong there), but he will explain your options. And then there's a therapist, who I think is just someone to talk to and give advice, which is nice.

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Okay, so I've actually been really depressed for a while. I don't know if it's clinical or not, but I'm starting to think I need to go to a doctor. I just can't find the energy to give a damn?? About anything?? The only thing I can really do anymore is draw, and even then I'm so terribly art blocked and nothing is good enough. My motivation is out the window. I feel happy sometimes, but it's fleeting and it goes away as fast as it comes. Yesterday I saw my friend out in public, I hadn't seen her in a long time. She was genuinely concerned about me and asked me if I was okay... We talked, but seeing her put me in shock afterwards. She looked so together. It was like seeing a reflection of who I used to be. For the first time in a while, I was genuinely feeling strong emotion. I cried myself exhausted when I got home thinking about how much I want to be okay again. I guess the fact that I'm showing some emotions at least, is good? I don't know. It's really hard to get out of bed because I'm just so tired. I need to sleep, but I've also had mild insomnia along with the emotional numbness. I'm tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of not being able to care. I'm also scared to death of just being prescribed a "happy-pill". I don't want that, and I don't know what to do anymore. It's also frustrating not being able to sleep. This isn't who I am. I'm usually so happy and bubbly naturally, so feeling numb and lethargic is tearing me apart.

bottom line: I'm depressed and I'm terrified of going to a doctor

i may not need actual advice, i just needed to share bc keeping these feelings (or lack of) inside me is hell

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hello :)

first of all, im terribly sorry for what you're going into, and i would actually want to say, i love you for who you are, you rock, keep going, you can get out of this misery, i know you will <3
and second, it's good to start taking care of your body, and to actually enjoy spending your time doing something you love at once! you may feel like it will never end, but it will.

devote your time to your family and friends, perhaps you can go on a picnic with your family in the weekends or any other place, when you have the free time to do so. if you feel comfortable socializing with your wide circle of friends, then do it! because that's what the REAL you acts like, she is a very perfect representation of bubbliness, happiness, optimism, and so much more!! try to be more aware of what you're feeling and focus on yourself.

the most important part of all, look out for someone who will care for you, who will talk to you, who will understand your emotions and help you solve your problems, i would suggest a therapist for example but there's much more than that, as i said above, you wouldn't mind contacting your family, friends, or even relatives from time to time wouldn't you?

i've heard many people say that, for some point, you don't need love, you just want it.
this is all just a bunch of baloney. it's a big lie. i mean, what's so wrong about needing love and affection when you're seeking for it? it's the source of what makes you who you are, it's what makes you happy, it's what matters to you most. without love in this world, what else would we need?

bagel. i want you to know that you're the most lovable human a person could've ever needed. you're the most adorable, quirky, outgoing, and sweetest person i have ever met, and i want to tell you that you're not alone in this journey, i would do my best and help you get the love and comfort you need :)
you're such a great person, just keep believing in yourself, aim for that high note, keep going for your dreams, someday you'll find your real you who's dying to emerge from the wave of depression and fault and reach out for you, you can do it <3

bagelbit a dit :

Thank you for your advice, you're sweet

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