Uhh, I have a few things
1. My friend has recently started cutting herself and I'm worried for her.. She lives an hour away, so it's gonna be really hard to see her in real life, and she won't quit it. She started two days ago and I'm not sure of what to do..
2. Another friend is friends with a person who hates me. Like, HATES me. But she has a crush on her.. And slowly but surely, my friend is starting to hang out with me less and less and her more and more. She is a really close friend so I'm also not sure, and my small friendgroup [with her in it] some people never get on, and the people who do don't for a while..

I just need to ramble this out of my system because I've been holding this in for ages and gosh it sucks rn

so this has to do with school
specifically me and my insane procrastination when it comes to school

If you didn't know already, I'm homeschooled (I go to a "virtual" school bc my state can do that) and I'm able to complete my assignments at any time (except that I must turn in 2 assignments per class every week)
That sounds nice and easy compared to your average school where you're forced to do everything at certain times, right?
For my case, it's not. It's just worse.

I've always struggled with procrastination all of my school life, and even though I'm a perfectionist and that's really bad for them, it still happens all the time. TBH most of the stuff in my classes are really boring though if it's really easy, then I would do it, knock it out in one shot, get a perfect grade,
boom. Except now since stuff is much harder, I can never push myself to complete anything, and if by a lucky chance I do, I usually have to physically beat myself just to do it (no hard stuff like bats or knives and etc., just small stuff like empty water bottles and the occasional book or two if I really need to focus/ I'm really slacking off.) Even though I do still tell myself everyday to "just do it no matter what aka mind over matter," my laziness just gets to the point where that has become useless.

It's gotten to the point where no matter how hard (well not really hard) I beat myself, sacrifice all of my toys/electronics and do weird yet slightly painful shit like drinking apple cider vinegar, starving myself and etc., I just can't get the motivation to do my work. There's really no solution to this as far as I can see (any changes to my homeschooling like longer/shorter days and more assignments will just make me more lazier/make me go even more insane, and I don't want to go back to an actual school for the rest of this year,) so I'm just stuck here trying to figure out how to make myself happier...

which I'm not. At all.
This year so far has just been hell in a handbasket and school is just making it even worse and worse, no doubt about it. I do wish I could talk to my friends more but at the same time a) they have lives b) I don't want to bother them c) they have more important friends than me and d) I do want to talk to other people and stuff but my social skills are terrible... plus reason a.

this just hurts so much it's actually making me cry
at this point if it gets worse then you might as well end my life
it would be awesome if anyone helped me out in this as I'm just completely alone here but what are the freaking chances
hhhhh

I feel stressed out of my mind.

I used to have a really optimistic personality but it just dissipated this month. My mind feels fragile and I've been on the verge of tears since the beginning of March.
I used to always joke about my 'raging teenage hormones' but it feels like a kick in the fucking heart. I'm starting to understand why so many people seem to have an emo phase. I just feel like being bitter at the world, like it would make a difference.

My closest friends have been distancing themselves away from me and gravitate towards their new friend group. Granted, I only had 4 friends I would consider anything past acquaintances, but they were close to me. I don't want to be possessive of them either, but I feel helpless as I find they lose interest towards me.
The other classmates in my class don't talk with me anymore, I asked a couple of them why. I come to realize that my interests are slipping away from theirs as we grow up, and a couple of them called me flat out boring.
But god be damned I still feel lonely, and my ex-friends were the only thing that made school tolerable.
I understand that friendships at these age do not last forever, and that we move on to new friend groups, but I hate how much this hurts. I hate realizing that I had connected with the only people who are the most relatable to, meaning finding new friends outside them is going to be tough. This same thing happened around 4th grade, I was bullied by an old friend to the point where I contemplated suicide.

Speaking of school, our finals are coming up, and that's the main source of my stress. I haven't studied well at all this semester, feeling my grip on the world slowly ease away from me. And procrastinating on my revision isn't helping. But for the life of me I can't find motivation to do it, and the traditional things like time-tables, mind-maps don't work on me. Banning myself from electronics don't help, because it ends up building up my stress without any source of deflating it.

I'm just turning into an attention whore because of how often my voice drowns out in just fucking everything.
I'm still figuring teenage-hood out in all honesty.
Maybe I'm feeling like this because of my PMS.
I'll probably delete this later.

Are you able to contact her and confront her about why she stopped talking? It might help to know the real reason and it might give you the chance to mend your friendship (this totally didn't just happen to me). Sorry if you didn't ask for advice, but I hope you'll be fine soon :(

I a few weeks ago had a voice in my head telling me I was an idiot and it prevented me from classwork in tech theater. Then i keep getting a few reacurring voices telling me to hurt this guy. I told my dad about it and he was pretty concerned. I'm trying to figrure out why these voices are saying these things.

I'm starting to lag in my art making skills, and im trying to find a way to jump start it again