I'm glad the principal made the decision for us to choose whether to do online or physical school. I was going to choose physical school and now I can confirm my choice with having to worry about you. Seriously, when I saw that you were choosing to do online school, I broke into a happy dance because that means I don't have to see you every weekday and deal with your shit like before.

I'm so fucking happy that I don't have to see you anymore. You are so toxic that it hurts to breathe when you're around. Now that I'm free, I can finally be the amazing senior and person I've wanted to be.

So go ahead, talk shit and spread rumors about me on Discord. Go reveal to the world how disgusting you are and don't complain when people start leaving you for it. You deserve it, asshole.

Your words and actions can't even touch me anymore. Please, go try to break me down, you won't. This will be the best year of high school in my life and you can't stop me.

-gee, I wonder who this is

To the person I mistreated when we were in kindergarten or grade one,

I am sorry for doing what I did to you. I disliked you, because I was too self-conscious about what others said about me - it was the exact opposite of what you were. I kept thinking that you were better than me in every way. To this day I still think you were. I was jealous of you because I couldn't have the same kind of lifestyle you had. I don't know where you are now but I really do hope you are doing well. You probably never thought of me as a friend but that's okay because I never forgave myself for doing that to you. Do you remember when we met again after a few years? I couldn't even look you in the eye because I was so ashamed of myself, yet you acted normally and treated me like I did nothing to you. I would never do anything like that again, and if there's one thing I can learn from you, it's to hope to be as generous and forgiving as you are.

Yours sincerely,
.

I honestly don't even want to start it off like a normal letter. Let's get straight to the point. I hate it when you always guilt trip me. Thanks to my friend who made me realize it, I've always succumbed to your wishes unless they were obviously unfair. I'm not the kind of person who would give you everything you want, unfortunately. I've learned things the hard way and I know I'll never again trust anyone so easily. I thank you for all the nice things you've done for me, such as caring about me when I was having a hard time with those room mates, but it isn't about that now. I really hate that you have to mix two things together when they're obviously not related. I'm grateful for your help, but I'm not happy with how you do things. Like I'm sorry you felt so anxious that I'll never return your book but I just haven't decided when to. I did give you a hint that it'll be in August since you won't need it until September but you really rushed it and I don't understand it at all. I felt bad for keeping it but I never said I wouldn't return it. Maybe I'm this upset because you thought I was the same as everyone else. Maybe that's why you and I can't be well-acquainted, let alone be friends. Don't get me wrong, I understand what's yours is yours but I really don't think it was appropriate how you rushed me and tried to contact me when I was clearly sleeping. If I knew you'd go that far, I would never have accepted your offer to borrow your book. Just because you knew I needed it and decided to lend it to me, you really shouldn't expect the same kind of behavior from the other person, ever. It's wrong, but it's like giving a gift to someone (in a way). Not to say you can't ask for it back, but generally you don't. In this case you can but you shouldn't press it, especially when you don't even need it right now. I find you really creepy the moment I saw you, no offence. It got worse when you sat next to me and started talking to me like we've known each other for a long time - I even thought you might have gotten the wrong person. I've always wondered how you...well, do life, if you will. I mean you have a girlfriend and you continue to talk to girls like it's nothing. Again, don't get me wrong. It's fine to talk to anyone but I noticed you mainly talk to pretty and/or cute girls. I even asked you what made you want to talk to me and you tried to avoid it by giving a general answer until I pried your honesty out. Then other times you go talking about inappropriate stuff like it's the weather and I never say anything, but it makes me very uncomfortable. I wish you knew that and kept it to yourself.

why do you care about me at all
I fucking hate myself all the time yet you still think I'm a fleshbag worth living in this world
I'm so confused
why haven't you guilt-tripped me yet
why haven't take shit I love away for no reason other than "lol I said so"
why do you care
why haven't you accused me of being someone I'm not
why haven't you forced me to be unhappy
why
why
why haven't you talked shit about the things that make me happy
why haven't you called me a failure
I don't get this
I don't get this at all
you're just some random untrustworthy stranger on the internet according to my parents yet you treat me wwwaaaaayyyyyy better than them
why are you so nice to me and care about my health
why haven't you convinced me to kill myself yet

why are you a very good person
why do you even stand me


crying, some stupid dumbass on the internet with a fucked up brain who doesn't deserve to live

Thank you for always being there for me, even when you're more tired than anything. I hope one day I can stay with you forever, without a care in the world. Even if you never see this, I'd still like to say something.
Truly, I love you with every piece of my soul. I wish you'd understand that I could never stop loving you. Really, it's impossible. No matter what anyone says, I couldn't ever let go of someone that has saved me. Although, even if you never responded to me, I would still always, always love you. I'm sure one day, I'll be able to...

Hehe, nevermind.

If you ever find this, just remember...
No matter how much you break my heart, I will be holding onto you, even if it kills me.
You're all, alright?
So please don't leave me. Don't ever go anywhere far. But don't let me hurt you, don't remember anything. Don't think about it, please. Take care of yourself, because I cannot do so. Maybe you shouldn't have loved me, just like I told you to do.

Make sure I don't ruin your kindness, your happiness, and warmth. If I do, I don't want to live anymore. Please, don't tell me that I made you who you are...

I should be quiet again, right?
I'm sorry, I'll stop.
Just like always,
I'll be waiting.

I love you, Dearyth.
I'm sorry.

Sincerely,
XXXXXX.